COVID-19
What a time in our lives.. a time where everything is mostly uncertain. They said it was coming, but I don't think we were prepared for how quickly things would (have to) change.
Practicing social distancing has been interesting to say the least. As my best friend put it, "it's for the greater good", which is undeniably true. I'm just not used to spending this much time on my own. Please know that I am not meaning this in a form of complaining or thinking that it is stupid.. it is anything but stupid. It is saving lives. It is protecting healthcare workers from being even further overwhelmed than they already are.. It's just different. It's change. It's sitting in a quiet apartment all day and night by yourself, and listening to your mind talk.
When your mind wants to talk about things, do you let it? Do you allow yourself to let your mind wander in, out, and around the subjects that maybe you aren't ready to think about?
There are lots of phrases around 'self love' and practicing self love. Self love isn't just about bubble baths, spa treatments, and 'treatin' yourself'... even though I wish it was, sometimes. A part of my self love journey is sitting here and listening to my mind. Letting this brain do what it needs to do, and face the things/thoughts/memories that weren't always pretty. It's letting myself open myself back up to the scary parts of life/my mind that I have neglected for so long, and tried to avoid. It's not always fun, and it is so far from easy... but when I sit here and think about the people in the hospitals or at home, that are being plagued by illness... I am more open to it.
They announce daily how the numbers are climbing. How many positive tests for COVID-19. How many deaths. How many people in your county/state/country are affected. It's horrifying. It's scary as heck... Then the mainstream media hypes things up as well, and that in and of itself makes it harder to stay calm. Why? Why is it so hard to keep anxiety in check when you know that certain things are being used as scare tactics & being blown up?
I envy the people that have someone right now. While I know that the grass isn't always greener on the other side, my inner Ariel is just "wanting to be where the people are". There are a lot worse things than being here alone... but I just miss my people. I miss my daily routine. And while I have enjoyed certain things, I just realized how much I like being scheduled and having a daily routine. Not having that has thrown me off a little bit.
None of this is really cohesive. It's all a bunch of thoughts that I thought I would have a little bit better organized, and I'm afraid that's not the case.
Thinking of everyone right now.
Blessings.Prayers. High Hopes. <3
Love you, Most.
Practicing social distancing has been interesting to say the least. As my best friend put it, "it's for the greater good", which is undeniably true. I'm just not used to spending this much time on my own. Please know that I am not meaning this in a form of complaining or thinking that it is stupid.. it is anything but stupid. It is saving lives. It is protecting healthcare workers from being even further overwhelmed than they already are.. It's just different. It's change. It's sitting in a quiet apartment all day and night by yourself, and listening to your mind talk.
When your mind wants to talk about things, do you let it? Do you allow yourself to let your mind wander in, out, and around the subjects that maybe you aren't ready to think about?
There are lots of phrases around 'self love' and practicing self love. Self love isn't just about bubble baths, spa treatments, and 'treatin' yourself'... even though I wish it was, sometimes. A part of my self love journey is sitting here and listening to my mind. Letting this brain do what it needs to do, and face the things/thoughts/memories that weren't always pretty. It's letting myself open myself back up to the scary parts of life/my mind that I have neglected for so long, and tried to avoid. It's not always fun, and it is so far from easy... but when I sit here and think about the people in the hospitals or at home, that are being plagued by illness... I am more open to it.
They announce daily how the numbers are climbing. How many positive tests for COVID-19. How many deaths. How many people in your county/state/country are affected. It's horrifying. It's scary as heck... Then the mainstream media hypes things up as well, and that in and of itself makes it harder to stay calm. Why? Why is it so hard to keep anxiety in check when you know that certain things are being used as scare tactics & being blown up?
I envy the people that have someone right now. While I know that the grass isn't always greener on the other side, my inner Ariel is just "wanting to be where the people are". There are a lot worse things than being here alone... but I just miss my people. I miss my daily routine. And while I have enjoyed certain things, I just realized how much I like being scheduled and having a daily routine. Not having that has thrown me off a little bit.
None of this is really cohesive. It's all a bunch of thoughts that I thought I would have a little bit better organized, and I'm afraid that's not the case.
Thinking of everyone right now.
Blessings.Prayers. High Hopes. <3
Love you, Most.
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